30 Day Love / Truth Challenge DAY 20: Long Distance / Internet Love? Do you believe in it? Why / Why not?

Love is love, no matter where you find it or where it starts. Yes, I believe in long distance loves and internet love. Do people realize how many relationships start on the internet these days? It's a crap shoot no matter where you meet people anymore. There's always the possibility of success OR failure whether you meet a person in your local grocery store or on the world wide web. Why limit your options as to where you can meet that person that might be perfect for you?

The cool thing about meeting people is that you can find love with even the biggest differences between you.  ;)

 You can tailor your searches to find people that fit your specific list of criteria LOL

We should all keep our eyes open too, because there's really no telling when that one we thought to be a frog, might actually turn out to be that "prince" in disguise....

I've met so many awesome people online. I really can't stress enough that the good experiences with the internet have FAR outweighed the bad ones. There are bad apples everywhere and we're just as apt to find them at a club, grocery story, a gym, work, as we are on the web. Douchebaggery exists world wide and isn't confined to the virtual world. In my experiences, I've gotten to know people quite well through chatting online. YES, there's ALWAYS the possibility that who you're talking to ISN'T who they say they are. People sometimes like to embellish on the 'net...anything to make themselves look better. Hell, you can find men and women like that right on the corner near your home. There are also good, decent, honest people out there. They're the kind of people you end up feeling blessed to know...the kind of folks you can turn to when times are hard for friendship, comfort and help.

It's rough when you meet someone you hit it off with, especially online, that's not right around the corner from you.

Distance can be a mortal enemy to ANY relationship, whether it bloomed online or elsewhere. No one wants to be away from the person they love and care for. The greater the distance between you, the rougher it is, I'm sure. I've met many people online that I've hit it off with that I would have dated if distance had allowed (and if my non-trusting heart had allowed it). I've met MANY people online (male and female) and have been quite lucky that none of them were bad people (ex. psycho murderers, rapists, etc). They were ALL, in fact, hot messes in some way, because that's the kind of people I like! Gotta keep it interesting! I detest boring people. LOL.

 I've been closer to some people, more than others. That happens of course, even with people you meet away from the 'net. I've been close to some of them for years, and will ALWAYS be that way with them. It's not hard to figure out which loves are true and will always hang around.

Some burn far more intensely than others. Ya wouldn't think it's possible to know what desire and passion feel like when passed through a keyboard, would you? I never thought about it back when I first started playing around in the virtual world MANY years ago, but I eventually found an appreciation for the things that can develop through this form of social interaction. I've known a love through this box, so strong, that it FAR surpassed anything I thought possible. I'd been married and had kids with someone before, and THAT love didn't even come CLOSE to what I felt for my "internet love".

People who truly love one another find a way to make the hard times work, especially when there's distance involved. I guess it all depends on how much you care for that person, and the time, money, and feelings you're willing to invest in any given relationship....

It CAN work, but it would have to be two very trusting and devoted individuals.


No matter how you look at it...if it's love, you do what you have to do....

and never let go of what made you fall for that person to begin with. True love will overcome all obstacles...

*Sigh* I ♥ love! It's a beautiful, painful, precious thing in any form.

30 Day Love / Truth Challenge DAY 19: What Do You ♥ To Do The Most?

There's a definite tie between the 2 things I love to do the most, so I will be mentioning them both here. I am a fan of art. The word ART can be something you find in so many forms. My two favorite forms of it are able to draw me in and transport me to another place, if only for brief moments in time.....

Writing. I love it. I've loved to write since I was a small child. I wrote as much and as often as I could. Writing assignments in school were definitely right up my alley, that's for sure. ( I could have done without the ones that required research of some kind though. LOL.) I like to just sit down with a pen and paper and let things flow out. I've written poetry for many years. Writing is sometimes the most amazing form of escape and release that I've ever known. I've had many things I've wanted to escape over the years, so it came in QUITE handy. I kept journals for many years, until I found myself around unsavory characters that liked to delve into my personal thoughts at their leisure. Some things are specifically for oneself...the things that you choose NOT to share. I stopped keeping one years ago, but maybe I'll take the habit back up again. (Hell, for that matter, my blog is like one giant journal, so there may be no need for that. Ya can't get much more personal than I am here.)

I long for my own personal quiet space where I can just feel free to be me, and let whatever is inside out. I'd give anything for a hidden room to escape to, where I can be quiet and feel relaxed.



My other love, which is probably way more intense than my love of writing....

MUSIC!!!! I love it in ways I can't explain. It's one of the most expressive art forms ever. I love to listen to it, and I love to sing. I don't care that I may not be the best, I do it anyway. Anyone within hearing range who might not like it can either get missing or deal wit it! THAT'S RIGHT! I said it. At any given moment, I might be channeling Alicia Keys, Adele, Whitney...or any other diva out there. (Who cares that I sound NOTHING like them?) My give a damn is busted Chile. Iffin' ya don't wanna hear me, I suggest people run on out and invest in a supply of ear plugs. I'm sure y'all can get a discount if you buy in BULK!  ;)

Music, to me, is an expression of one's soul, no matter what type of music it is. There is something beautiful in EVERY kind of music out there. Everyone has their personal tastes in different genres of music, but none of us should criticize the expressions of others. (I'm aware that's hard to keep ourselves from doing sometimes.)

Music is love, pain, joy, rage, fear...it's EMOTION in some of it's rawest forms and an art that I will forever have an undying respect for! ♥

30 Day Love / Truth Challenge DAY 18: The ♥ Triangle! Desire Me? Who? Wha?

I've unfortunately been at the center of a couple of these bad boys. It's great to be loved...sure! It sucks, however, when there's more than one person at a time carrying around feelings for you. Some might think that wouldn't suck, but for me, I have never enjoyed anything less. In those situations, someone always gets hurt and anyone that truly knows me, knows that there's nothing I hate more than hurting another person. (I don't want to be hurt by anyone, so WHY would I want to be the one causing the pain?)

There's always one of them that just can't tolerate the other, even though they may not know each other. Just their mere existence is enough of an irritant....

I've even had situations where one of them wanted to seriously injure and maim the other person. It's just bad business that should TRY to be avoided at all costs. In my case, I've come across so many people in my life, and had so many relationships where I've gotten close to certain people, that it seems I can't avoid things like this happening sometimes. I'm not even all that great so I TRULY don't get it. (You'd think I was some damn gorgeous Playboy model type with some of the triangle drama I've had to endure...sheesh!)

I'm usually left praying that someone will just wake up one day and magically forget that they care about me. Unfortunately, for more than just me, it doesn't work that way. I've got a couple people that I've known for years that are still to this day carrying some kind of a torch for me. I have actually asked what it is about me that's had them hanging on this long, just waiting for the opportunity to prove their feelings. The answer has been pretty much the same...some people seem to think I'm amazing for some reason. I keep trying to tell people that I'm just an average, every day woman. I couldn't be more "plain Jane" if I tried. I hear it told that it's my personality. I guess that being an outgoing, caring, humorous, and loving individual  can sometimes have it's down side.

30 Day Love / Truth Challenge DAY 17: Young Love...Is it Real?

Yes, I DO believe young people can fall and love and it be the real thing. I mean, really, who is to say what is real and what isn't anyway? No one knows exactly what another person is feeling inside to start with. Only the person with the feelings can ever really know that. I've heard many stories of young love over the years and even had my own experience with it. I actually think that the younger some people are when they fall in love for the first time, the more painful it can be. Our first loves are some scary business. You wake up and realize you have all these feelings tumbling around inside that you don't know what to do with. I've heard stories of people who met when they were small children and somehow ended up together down the line. Those are always awesome ones.

My young love experience, for me, was sort of fairytale-ish to start with. I, being the unpopular girl, somehow managed to fall in love with a guy from the "cool side". A guy that could have had any woman he wanted back then, and chose to hang out with me. THAT FREAKING RAWKS! To be honest, the popular people back in the day weren't even ones that I'd want to be "friends" with, much less date or fall in love with. It turns out though, that he was a pretty amazing character once I got to know him. It's funny how that happens, isn't it? When you take the time to turn a few pages, you find you'd have been wrong if you had opted to judge the book by its cover.

My young love was so real and intense for me, that I was in love with him for a couple years after things fell apart between us. I never forgot about him though, and he had a HUGE impact on my life. Even with the way things ended between us, I wouldn't trade a single second I spent with him and wouldn't have wanted any other first love. He was sweet, kind, and caring, and completely gentle with me when the time came for him to be. What was a highly embarrassing moment in my life, was made so much better by the kindness and gentleness he showed me.

♥Such a blessing that some feelings never fade.♥

30 Day Love / Truth Challenge DAY 16: Do You Believe In Love At First Sight?

Love at first sight....what an awesome notion. I've heard people say that they've experienced it before. There are some that have found their soul mate through that experience. What lucky bastards they are, since I didn't find my soul mate that way. I found mine by accident, and can't even be with that person anyway. Poor me. LOL.

I HAVE experienced love at first sight....FOUR times to be exact. They are the only times I have ever experienced it and will be the only mentions I have on the subject.

March 20 : The day my beautiful baby girl Brianna was born.

November 8 : The day my son Eric was born.

October 7 : The day my daughter Shelby Lynn was born.

September 3 : The day my little Becca came into the world (though I must say, even though I was instantly in love with her little self, she was seriously one of the most homely, scary looking newborns EVA! Hahaha)

~30 Days of Truth~ DAY 12: Compliment those? Not a chance! LOL

So...I saw this entry topic and I thought to myself, "Hmmm what it it that I NEVER get compliments on?" This really should have been a "no-brainer". I mean honestly, once I disclose this,  people will say, "Really? You had to actually THINK about this one?" Thank God for Jason really. Where would I be without him? I wouldn't have anyone to point out the oh so very OBVIOUS things to me. LOL. Alrighty then, here goes nothing folks......

Mmmmhmmm, that IS what you think it is. That is my ugly ass foot! These puppies have been a source of ridicule for me since back in high school! It's a painful subject really....*wipes tear*  They've always been ugly as heyell! Notice the longer second toe? Serious HOT MESS!!! During the 7 years I was with my ex Tony....I picked up  A LOT of nicknames. (Some of those cannot be disclosed here, because then I'd have to kill you people).  I have been known as "Geronitoe" since Tony first saw my feet. That shit spread like wild fire throughout his whole family. Yes, they ALL call me that shit. LMAO! Tony used to say, that if the turn signals ever went out on our vehicles, we'd still be straight, because all we had to do was stick my correct foot out da winder and that 2nd toe curves in that direction.

Go ahead, I know some of y'all mo fos are laughing like hell right now. It's cool. I'm over it. *screams into pillow* I can handle anything y'all dish out. Come at me and you'll see!

*mumbles under breath* I swear imma kill Tony one day...*snickers*

~30 Days of Truth~ DAY 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on

I'd definitely say that initially, the compliment I receive most is about my eyes. I never really thought much about what my best physical things were, until the compliments started coming in about my eyes. I'm not the type of female that wears makeup either. I very seldom wear it, so there's nothing helping to draw attention to them. From what I'm told, I don't need anything extra. (I do so love compliments like that. It's always a nice, and much appreciated ego boost. Good thing I've learned how to take the compliments, eh? lol) I'm told they are bedroom eyes. I've only got one picture of myself that I think might even come close to the "bedroom eyes" look, and I'm really NOT about to post it on this blog so all my Facecrack friends can see it. LMAO! (Lord, I'd never hear the end of it from all my freaky friends!) So, sorry folks...that pic isn't going up.Haha.

I think the next physical feature I get compliments is pretty much tied with the compliments for my eyes. This feature wasn't something people got to see much on me for a LONGGGGG time. Being depressed keeps these away...the REAL ones anyway.  There ARE a few people who can bring on the real ones.....

Yup, the smile. I've got friends who have made it their life's work trying to keep one of these on my face. Bless their little hearts. LOL


Last but not least, is the one thing that's not physical....my sickening sense of humor. I'm a nut. Everyone that knows me, knows that I talk any way I want to...act like a complete dork, and I am quite happy with myself this way. I don't intend to change. What ya see, is what ya get......  ;)

Anddddd...some of the shit you'll see with me....AIN'T purty!!!!!! Hahaha!

Lord, I remember that day. I was working out to a Billy Blanks video. That was the day Gina became forever more known as "Billy's Bitch!"


Ain't it grand being friends with me? *smirks*